From jeff.gaia.com/blog/2006/5
Recently, my inner voice told me it was necessary to cancel the most recent trip to Peru that I had planned – in fact, the plane was set to leave yesterday, and of course, I wasn’t on it. I spent the morning in quiet meditation with my cats, feeling instead the rightness of the exact space where I found myself, despite the undeniable yearning I have to keep on the shamanic path. But a funny thing happened when I closed the door to the latest trip, trusting that voice despite my louder protests – another door blasted open, wide and welcoming.
A few months back, I had a devastating ordeal regarding my most treasured Ayahuasca shaman – he left / was relieved from his post in Peru. Where he is now, I do not know – somewhere in the jungle, no doubt continuing his beautiful service. But as he is not virtually connected, and we don’t even speak the same language, I had to release the attachment I have to him in the physical, and instead let him continue to work with me in the energy realms. Something I know he does already, but it hurt so much to have to, in a sense, say goodbye.
After I let myself heal from that letting-go, I came to realize that it was time to find a US-based shaman. I have only worked with my crew in Peru – which has been glorious, and I will certainly continue my trips south. But at the same time, I’m ready for more. I can’t afford to go as often as my heart is calling me to, and the last two trips I’ve inked have fallen through (again, only because my voice has said so – and if Ayahuasca has taught me anything, it’s to trust that voice no matter what.) So, after the aforementioned curve ball, I wrote in my little to-do list “Find US-based shaman.” I had no idea how or where, but he/she was out there.
About 3 weeks later, I got an email, followed by a phone call, from an amazing, ethereal friend I originally met during my second trip to the Amazon. I’ll call him Enigma. He is one. He’s barely – just barely – human. A raw foodist, oozing a powerful yet insanely gentle aura – he’s just a gorgeous being. Anyway, he told me he had been working with a US-based shaman a lot recently, and during these ceremonies, I had come to him seeking the same experience. He knew unequivocally that I was destined to work with this shaman too. He gave me the shaman’s info, and I have since done my due diligence. As it turns out, Enigma couldn’t be more right – my path is unfolding before me.
I’ve connected with this glorious man, and I’m awed and humbled that I should be so lucky to join him in ceremony one day very soon. We’re working out the logistics. But it will happen, and likely, repeatedly, as I’m looking for someone in this country that I can work with regularly, should my voice continue to tell me to do so. Ayahuasca, of course, would never stand in my way of being closer to her, so she delivered me this gift. God, I’m just so happy, so sourced, so incredibly grateful to know more of this depth, and ascension. And I’ll likely get to share it with several other people I love with all of my being – people I’ve been in ceremony with before, and others that have yet to know this journey, but have felt the calling too.
And so it goes that I’m not sure if I’ll make it to Peru this year yet, but that won’t stop me from continuing my work. With Ayahuasca, the Guru, and anything else the universe has in store. Yeah, I am one lucky cat.
