PoetKitty's Shaman / Enlightenment Blog

Like many angst-ridden goth-wannabe teens, I had a viscous streak of suicidal ideation.  It started through an innocent fascination with death, and before I knew it, I had actually named my suicidal thoughts “consumption”, as they were truly becoming all-consuming.  I wrote poems and short stories, and invariably, the main character would off him/herself in [...]

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God.  Wow, what a powerful word.  It’s one of those word-bombs that almost always elicits some sort of response in folks.  Heart-stopping reverence.  Stomach-turning resistance.  Even God -apathy is stronger than an army tank.  Whatever emotion you have when you hear / speak the word, it’s likely to be potent.
I’ve run the gamut of responses [...]

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Back on the eve of Christmas Eve, I found a rare quiet, completely solo night to myself, and felt it right to go deep with the plants again.  My previous Huachuma ceremony was my only to-date solo excursion with Grandfather Wisdom / San Pedro, and I felt like I learned volumes about the energies, especially [...]

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As we noodle down the treacherous and oft overwhelming path ala enlightenment, many of us pound our heads against spiky walls out of sheer paradoxical frustration.  It seems every luminous enlightenment being speaks a different language.  Sometimes it feels like no one is really pointing at the same moon – that this is all a [...]

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I’m in a perpetual “wha?” state as of late, more than a little flummoxed by the odd energies I’ve fallen into.  My chosen perspective in the highest sense is to embrace said-frustration, say yay to my mass confusion, and transcend the urge to, well, feel it.
That only feels like half the story, however – like [...]

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