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Posted in The Path of Enlightenment on Oct 6th, 2009
Intellectually, I know what’s transpiring. I have poured myself into integrity, into finding out my true self, and relinquishing the ego’s stronghold. I have declared truth at all costs, willing to feel whatever I must to liberate. But oh my fucking god, sometimes I feel like it’s killing me. (That’s that small me talking, and [...]
Posted in Aftermaths and In-Betweens on Dec 7th, 2008
I’m in a blazing state of judgment, trying desperately to drown out the 592-piece orchestra of emotions that have flared up in my resilient and resistant little self. My ego (all egos?) is all of 8 years old, so she’s shutting down into a “I can’t hear you I can’t hear you” little tirade. But [...]
Posted in Ayahuasca Ceremonies, Huachuma Ceremonies, Shamanic Ceremonies on May 20th, 2007
Hi all – sorry for the recent absence. Life gets in the way of blogging sometimes – how rude. Where Ayahuasca is internal, feminine, healing, somewhat fragile and based in the jungle (the lower world), Huachuma is external, profoundly powerful, wisdom-filled, masculine and based in the middle world (it grows in higher elevations in the [...]
Posted in Ayahuasca Ceremonies, Shamanic Ceremonies on May 18th, 2007
Don Mariano, another uber-powerful Shaman from a nearby village, was slated to be our guide for the final Ayahuasca ceremony this session. In many ways, I had been preparing myself for his return all week; our one and only previous session proved nightmarish. I fell into a hellish world that night, with horrific demons and [...]
Posted in Ayahuasca Ceremonies, Shamanic Ceremonies on May 17th, 2007
Going into my third ceremony of the most recent cycle – my 11th overall – I felt, for the first time ever, completely and utterly joyous. Previous ceremonies, the notable anxieties were ever-present, for diving into the infinite unknown held all kinds of What If’s. Ceremonies #2 and #7 were unbelievably painful and frightening – [...]
